Literally and figuratively...spending time on a plane and traveling and what possibilities lay ahead.
August and July have been all over the place as far as my career. Things seem to be going well with my part-time position in that my work is appreciated by the families and my team. It feels good to have that kind of success and I am grateful. My hours have fluctuated up and down and now probably up by a lot, but still not full-time right now. There have been changes in the company and one of my coworkers took another position. So, I'm taking it one day at a time and do the best work that I can.
With things still not being full-time, I had followed a couple of promising leads. However, I have not been successful, but have been SO close. Both said it was a difficult decision, but want to keep my information on file should something come available. Fingers crossed!
But for now, I will have to let go. As I have said before, interviewing gets me dreaming and there is so much that I want in my life, my life with T~. I would like a steady full-time job, healthcare benefits, retirement benefits, a house, travel, and to be in a place that when we are ready to start trying to have a family that we feel ready and not scrambling for the next steps to get us there. It is hard getting your hopes up and to then be let down. I am sad because I really wanted the last position, but it is all out of my control. I did the very best that I could. They really liked me, but the other person had just a little more experience in the specific department they were hiring. It hurts to keep putting yourself out there.
Thankfully, T~ is very supportive and he understands that I need a break. He admitted that he did not realize how competitive my field really is and underestimated how long it would take to get a full-time job. Right now, I'm going to focus on my current job and enjoy some normalcy in my life. It will be nice to focus on my life with T~, make wedding plans and slow down to enjoy life's simple pleasures. I will accept the peace in my life and the other things will come in time. I will keep hoping that the things in my daydreams will come in time. And I will keep reminding myself to be thankful for the blessings in my life.
Then, T~ and I got to get away for a long weekend to go to Gen Con, a gaming convention, where I got to enjoy trying new board games. It was nice to spend time with T~'s friends, too. And it was nice to explore more of Indianapolis and be away to relax. We both needed it and I hope we can plan for more time away soon, even if it is for a weekend.
And finally, between all of this running around, T~ and I decided to look into a new apartment with our lease being up in September. We have been packing and doing all of the stuff that goes along with moving while trying to keep it loose in case plans changed. But, as the month wrapped up, most of the stuff that was up in the air is now more clear. We will be moving to the other side of Orlando, which will greatly help with my commute. We are looking forward to having our first home together where we move into it as a couple.
