I know that I was feeling a little sorry for myself over the weekend of Christmas. But I think I just needed to get it out of my system. I have felt the shift of my focus returning to the present and that is on school and ultimately my career. The important part is realizing my feelings and accepting them so that I can get back to the business of life--and enjoying it!
I had fun exploring the exercise facilities on campus with my friend, Karina. We also had a really nice dinner and lots of girl-talk. It helped me to feel energized. And that is exactly what I needed, a reminder of the confidence in myself that I have been building. And I need to remind myself to be appreciative of what I do have in my life right now.
I'm with you, sometimes it's necessary to sulk a bit. Then you have to kick your own butt and move on!
ReplyDeleteAnd it sounds like you've done just that - Woo hoo!
Sometimes we all have to feel sorry for ourselves and be down in the dumps. Glad you have moved on and are back to feeling up to the challenge.
ReplyDeleteAnd so glad you had fun with your friend Karina!
Totally agree with Carli & Melissa-- we all need to take time sometimes to sulk a little. I think it's actually a very healthy thing to do as long as you don't get caught up in it. And obviously you haven't.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it amazing what a little girl talk can do? Sometimes it's just what the doctor ordered.
I wrote a long response to your christmas post and lost it, and then didn't have time to retype at the time when everything was fresh in my head. The gist of it is that your feelings are COMPLETELY valid. You have been through a lot and the strength you have radiates through every post. All of us have times when we feel down, or sorry for ourselves, and it's important that we're honest with ourselves and recognize those thoughts and feelings for what they are. It's not good to bottle them in and pretend they don't exist. It's so much healthier to sort them out and reflect on why we feel the way we do. Seriously, there are few people who could go through what you have been through and still have such a joyful outlook on life and be inspired to persevere and not just let that sadness take over and keep them down or rob them of the joy they deserve. Of COURSE you feel upset, some very terrible things were done to you, and some upsetting things with your dad's side of the family have happened, along with the longing for child that you are having to squelch for the time being due to new circumstances. Something would be wrong if you didn't still feel some sadness from that. It's part of moving on, and you are doing a fantastic job of facing those hard things, but also moving forward with an optimistic outlook and a hope for how things can be. Way to go, Jamie. You seriously rock!
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies for your understanding and encouragement. It comes at a time when I could really use it--even with my own upturn with focus and determination. Lots of love!
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