Today, I felt happy because it was spring.
But last week, I felt guilty. I felt guilty because I wasn't sure if I deserve to miss you both. It was a long shot. And honestly, your existence should not have been mentioned. There were too many other steps to get in the propper place. I feel embarrassed about that and somewhat angry and manipulated. Hindsight. Perhaps, you are not mine to miss. But, the heart is not rational and it will feel what it will feel. You would have been seven.
It is spring, a time to turn the page and leave the sadness in the past. It is a time to start fresh and look forward.