I am trying to keep a positive and hopeful mindset before Mom's surgery. But I am also very scared, too. I am afraid that something terrible could happen and I just don't know how I would cope if something bad happened. I try to stop that thought and then shift to envisioning better things. I don't want to skip over my feelings of fear and bury them to only get worse. But I am afraid of bringing on something terrible by focusing on them.
Too much going on right now and I have to finish my paper, soon! Bleh, selfish me. But maybe pooring myself into my work is a way of coping, even if avoidance or denial is not the best way. I just pray my mom will be okay and recover as quickly as possible.
Jamie, I didn't realize your Mom is having surgery. I'm thinking about you and sending prayers for her. Let me know how it goes. xoxo,
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Hey Em,
ReplyDeleteThis was an old post that I decided to later publish, as it is now something that people know about. I wanted to include this one and an earlier one as a way to show an authentic journey in telling my story, when looking back on it as a whole.
Thanks for your support!
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