Friday, January 31, 2014

January Blur

This is a back dated post.  January in many ways was a very tough month for me (on top of several tough months leading into it).  I don't know how to write about it.  I did everything I could do and I feel I came out stronger and more confident in myself in the end.  However, I'm not working at the hospital.  It was not the right fit.  I took a risk.  But in starting my second career, I need a place that is more established and with more resources in place.  So, I am looking for my next career opportunity.  Please send me prayers and good vibes to find the place I am meant to be and to call home.

In the meantime, I think about what my friend Karen said and what other dear friends have said to me in the past but with a twist.  When one door closes, another one opens.  But sometimes you may have to walk down a hall to find it.  It speaks about having patience and it may take time to find the right job for me. On a good note, I am blessed with supportive friends and family.

Of course, I believe that everything happens for a reason.  That reason may still be showing itself and unfolding.  Only time will tell and I try to free my mind to possibility.

Although, maybe one reason why I came to Orlando was to meet T~.  As a matter of fact, T~ has been amazing.  And despite these challenges, our relationship has grown.  We are fantastic.  He wants me to move in with him and I am.  :)  It feels right and I love him so very much!


  1. I am happy to hear about you and T! I'm so glad you are able to open up and let yourself be vulnerable again with someone you can truly trust...someone who DESERVES you!

    As for the hospital, I'm sorry it didn't work out, but take away from it all of the hard work you put in and everything you learned; things that were good or bad. It's not easy to have to set up an entire program from scratch, especially when it's your first position. You will find the best place for you and once again display your expertise!

  2. Thank you, Diane, for sharing in my happiness with T~. :) It is wonderful to be with someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him. You are right about trust. I keep growing in being open to doing that more deeply. And it feels like he does not take it for granted. Plus, I love how he is so comfortable in showing his love--in different ways around others and when it is just the two of us.

    Thanks for your words of support around the job. It is frustrating and sad, especially because I had such high hopes and poured myself into my work. Of course, I always put my all into my work. When it was happening and was fresh (and in moving forward), I've kept what you said close to me. "What am I to learn from this? What does God want to me to get out from this? What was His purpose for me to go through this?" And I'm trying to continue to learn and grow--keeping my eyes open to what I can do differently in the future and hold onto what I did well. Please keep me in your prayers that I find where I am meant to be and that I get a job soon. Maybe this next job will be a stepping stone along the way or a place to call home. I hope I find something soon.

    Been thinking about you, too, and hope you and your family are doing well!