Every now and again, I get this incredible itch to look for a house. This yearning will well up and I will scour the internet checking out realtor websites to research homes in different neighborhoods of where I live. This is not the first time I have felt this overwhelming desire to find a home, dreaming of settling into a life where having a family seems more tangible...or maybe more bearable without a child because less of life will feel in limbo.
Last winter, a friend, who knows about my history with IF and was pregnant at the time, said with a smile that I'm nesting. She is hopeful that one day I will be a mom.
It is difficult to have these feelings with nothing to nest.